The night sky.

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A photo taken by a friend was my inspiration for this piece.

I look up at the night sky
inspiration speaks to me.
I glimpse the moon through the branches
I watch the sway of the trees.

I accept the wondrous beauty
I adore the peaceful existence
I let the sky soak in
it really is infinite.

I accept reality
I take it all in
I am insignificant
Just a speck on the wind.

I'll be swept away
my life of no consequence
The universe is everlasting
I found the evidence.

This is true perfection
and true perfection has its flaws
Don't worry about the mistakes in life
you will never cover them all.

Not even you.

Listen to this shit

as I sit here stewing in it.

all my problems are a root cause of evil.

not money fuck that, love is what I speak of.

I do my best, I try my hardest.

no respect for what I go through.

this is bullshit.
fuck you too.

I hate you, I can't stand it

I love you, I hate that.

I felt so strung along.

I don't even have a chance.

you always speak the truth.

you're right, no ones good enough

its true.

not even you.

A Collaborative poem

I wrote this with a friend of mine, Joann, she is quite amazing.

How have you captured this lost soul of mine?

I see you approaching

the sway of your hips

mesmerizing like a siren's sweet song

I gather this courage, built up for ages,

to leap blindy into the depths of your compassion

How could you never see through me?

these feelings I didn't hide

I've come to you countless times

always looking for my way out

but that strength I found in you

slowly engulfed me like a warm rising sun

Will you listen to me when I tell you?

there's no denying it, believe me I've tried

only your presence can make me feel alive

see, it's time I told you, this secret I've held inside

I've yelled it to world, they know the truth

You deserve to know, that I love you.

How did you expect me not to fall?

even now, standing before me

you are the vision of every man's dream

a fiery temper, eyes full of wisdom

every curve of your body burns in my mind

I live entraced by every word to escape your lips

I wonder, will you share this with me?

I can wait patiently, time is my friend 

for now that I've thrown my cards on the table

and I don't know what kind of hand you dealt me

I fear,

Ill lose this bet

Each Day.

Well hey there friends
lets begin.

No way!
that's crazy
I say
just maybe

today
its okay
so lets play
my way.

Party time
shot time
fun times
my times.

Don't stop
do it now
Jump up
then come down.

Drag it out
make it last
this is good
just have a blast.

All this time
its so fun
I can't believe
Its almost done.

Lets do it again!

party time
shot time
fun times
my times.

Keep up
its almost over
when its done
we can start over.

grab a drink
grab a girl
chug it down
rock her world.

woke up
today
no thoughts
to say.

I live
each day
this way
s'okay

every time is party time
all times are shot times
each time is fun time
and Its always my time.

A Lie

I may have lied once
or maybe a few times.
not to hide the truth.

I kept it to myself
I was afraid.
change is scary.

It was my only lie
Repeated many times.
No longer.

I shouted out
I told the truth.
You now know.

I felt crazy
no control.
unsteady.

Its ok now
I'm not afraid
a burden is lifted.

I'm relieved now
and slightly nervous.
The truth is out.

The truth.

Its not fair

I want that

Its not fair

I saw it first

Its ok

we can share

we're all humans

here on earth.

I don't hate you

I've let you be

yet you show

hostility.

I'm not worried

I won't judge you.

I just wish

for things to change

Now I sit here

and we wonder

we really are

all the same.

So look at me,

tell me this

what demons do you see?

I'm a child here on earth.

what will finally make you believe?

Arrogance and Humanity

I've always known.

I'm crazy

insane

that I'd do anything.

Nothing holding me back

I strive for my goals

Things get in my way?

I don't think so.

You'd call them obstacles

I call it the road

I get what I want

because its what I deserve.

Thats right

because I'm crazy

insane

I know I'd do anything

You can't get in my way

impossible.

nothing can hold me back

agreed.

Give it a shot.

you will see

I go for what I want

and I know its what you need.

Are you crazy?

insane?

would you do anything?

You would.

No ones like me

I'm the best

miles high

above the rest.

For me its natural

just a gift

part of my life

you get the gist?

I may be crazy

and insane

but if I want you

who's to blame?

You're amazing

truly wonderful.

our insanity 

so agreeable.

I'll do my best

to be the best

head and shoulders

above the rest

Just one chance

thats all I need

I know you know

I'd do anything.

Running away.

Heart pounding, no escape
I try to flee.

The door slams shut
someones coming after me.

Running footsteps
the chase is on.

Thud, Thud, Thud
closer now.

They are catching up
impossible.

A burst of speed
I'm on my way.

I dart into the trees.
darkness envelopes.

Grabbing at my hair
whipping at my face.

I need to keep going
I need true escape.

The wind picks up.
Rain starts to fall.

The chase is over
I'm on my own.

a true home.

Whipping winds

pouring rain.

a chill sets in my bones.

Water dripping

the storms over

A light shines from afar

Walking slowly

in hopes of shelter

water streaming away.

The light grows closer

I hear laughter

I pick up the pace.

I run forward

slipping, sliding

Desire to see another face.

Its been so long

I've been so cold

The road I travel is lonely.

On the porch

each step creaking

I approach the door.

As I get closer.

light comes shining

someones standing there.

I see my hero

a true savior

the man I want to be.

He's always been there

how I love him.

I'll always have a home.

Alone in the darkness
All on my own.
No one can see me.

I start to cry out
The blood starts to flow.
No one believes me.

I've given up
I let it all go.
No one needs me.

Drip drip drip.
Its fading now.

Drip drip drip.
Its coming to a close.

Drip drip drip.
I'm all on my own.

Nothingness

An empty feeling

nothing inside

what I feel

empty lies

I go by

no one sees

the nothingness

inside of me

I fake laughter

I fake tears

no one knows

what I feel

I walk through

everyday

I pretend

in every way

What I feel

this nothingness

its inside me

its all that's left.

A poem about feeling nothing and lying to the world about it.

Who to blame?

A poem about part of my process when it comes to some of my writing.

It comes over me.

This anger, this rage.

I subdue my urges.

I write it on a page.

It takes me now.

this sadness, this fear.

I turn inwards

and write what I hear.

I let out my anger

my sadness too.

I write my poems,

just for you.

I hear your pity

I see your fears

your condescension

It is clear.

How can he do it?

what does he feel?

I don't get it.

how is this real?

It must be a lie.

there is so much pain.

he never writes happy.

who is to blame?

Momma.

It shatters.

It breaks.

This world we know.

falls apart.

Things happen

no control.

I hate it.

Give me peace

Give me love.

I had those things

I need them now.

Come back

tell me its okay.

I miss you.

I listen

just silence.

I call out

no response.

I look back

all those times.

I see what I need

Take steps

take leaps.

She's there with me

making it alright.

I can figure this out

she can help me through it.

I can make it.

I relied so much

on everything you did.

I didn't see at all

the impact you had.

You are gone

I accept that now.

It hurts to admit it.

I'll be okay

you taught me well.

I see what I need

and I will go for it.

I won't hold back

I won't be afraid.

I love you momma. I'll be okay.




I wrote this some time after my mom passed away. I love her forever and always.

My first attempt at a song.

This is my first song I have ever written, it has no title yet.

I'll sit idly by

as everyone moves on

I'll let the world pass

all hope is gone.

I told you what I need

I asked for you to come

I needed your guidance

but you were already gone.

You ran away from here.

You never looked back.

You turned your back on me

It felt like a slap.

I miss you dearly

I want you here.

I dream so clearly

I'm full of fear.

Years have gone by,

I don't need you now.

you stumbled back

You looked broken down.

I turned away

and left you alone.

I felt sadness

but you're on your own.

I couldn't let you back

you'd broken me once.

I repaired the damage

that you had already done.

I missed you dearly

I wanted you here.

I dreamt so clearly

I have no fear.

I don't miss you now

I want you gone.

I see the future

and you're not the one.

The Dragon.

I see you standing there

what the fuck you gonna do?

Hate on me? Bitch please

I don't care about you.

Do your worst, I'm the best

you don't fucking know me.

I'm a fucking champion

What would make you believe?

I'm the shit, No emotions

Fucking Ginger Dragon

That's what they'll call me

as you be draggin'

Follow me, you won't succeed

I have no doubts now.

I'm the best mother fucker

that will lay you out.

It could be worse, atleast I did it

not some little bitch

Don't feel bad, I'm a dragon

you can't handle this shit.

Are you ready? here we go

I'll teach you how it's done.

Just kidding, its all mine

I've already won.


I wrote this one because I felt like it, and two because my friends actually call me the dragon.

An explanation.

     I started writing quite some time ago, I'm not sure exactly when, but at or around 9th grade of HS.  I'm 22 now, so as you can see it has been quite a few years, I think the only poem I still have from back then is Bitterness.  I lost my notebook.
     I've recently begun writing again. I don't only write depressing poems, So don't be quick to judge all at once. I have a variety of poems, some I've written about other people or events, some happy some sad.  Most of my early ones are sad, I was going through some stuff when I started writing.
     However, that doesn't mean everything has to be sad, I will be posting a new poem at least once a week, sometimes more often if I can wrangle up a couple more then just the one.

And to get you started off I will be posting a new poem later today.

Bitterness.

First poem of many I will post, one I wrote quite some time ago.

Shattering, falling, breaking down.
I can't get up
I've hit the ground.

Let me go, let me be
I want, I need.
I desire to be free.

Pleading, crying, screaming, silence.
Its quiet now
The end of violence.

Calming, soothing, relaxing, serene.
What I want, what I need.
Please oh please, let me be free.

Please oh please
Let me fall down, I want to shatter, hit the ground.

Please oh please
Stop this pain
I want out
Of this sick game.