Day 12

What would you tell me if I were dying?

I wouldn't want to hear your consoling lies

The truth is what I would like to hear.

As bitter as it could ever be.

Your honesty would mean everything to me.

And if by chance it is in my favor, well that I would like as well.

Though with this knowledge gained I might wish to survive.

Even if this outcome has been foretold.

There is a new world for which I shall try.

Day 11

The wind howls through the chasm of life.
The craggy outcrops provide some shelter from the slicing maelstrom

Rain begins to fall,eroding the foundation of your protection

As well as a blinding darkness, feeding on your fear.

Conflict stirs on the edges, some for, some against.

Will you let outside forces determine the outcome

Or is this for you to decide?

Day 10

A whisper from your lips brings a smile
One that I can’t seem to hide
I never thought you’d be my desire
It seems my heart had other plans.

A distance we can’t quite cross
Is all that stands in our way
We may overcome this together
Or this could be the end of something great.

I would love to take a chance
A risk for this would be worthwhile
I guess this is my confession
Don’t let this be determined by miles.

Day 9

Days turn to weeks

Misery has no timeline

The pain you feel on day one can escalate, diminish, or remain the same.

There is no greater thing than overcoming inner pain.

The turmoil you feel can be resolved or it can grow.

The choice is yours, and will remain yours, always.

No one can take away the option of inner peace.

Don't keep yourself from sanity.

Day 8

I wish for better days
The ones that passed
and the ones to come
Any day but today.

Today brings up memories
Why offer the option to go back to a day like today?

To fix the cause of the problem of course. 

But would I be the same?

The true question is not, would I be the same.

The question should be, would I be better?

There is nothing to fix if things would get worse.

Think about the person you became
The friends you have made.

Would they be here if you were different?

Would your life be better without them?

I can honestly say, my life would be worse.

I lost my mother almost 3 years ago. I think about how often I would change that day, the things I did. I lost my best friend and it still hurts.

I will never forget the people who were there for me during that period, and the time after when I was in a very bad spot.

I lost my best friend, but I gained many more.

Many who I would never know if not for the situation life had set before me on that day. Many who have made me into the much better person I am now.

Day 7

Stuck in an endless loop of sadness

Unable to escape for something better

I wish my strength progressed further

I've got joy in my heart

And yet I feel like a failure

I've no method of expression for this.

I wish to inform the world that I'm happy.

But I just sit in silence.

I want to write down what I'm feeling.

Express myself in my favorite way

I just can't find the perfect words

My sadness is easier than bliss.

Day 6 part 2

Surrounded by friends
Yet still so alone
Why do you do this to yourself?

Well I’ve done it before
I can do it again
I can handle this on my own.

What’s the point in that?
Being alone is a choice
One your friends don’t agree with.

They don’t need my problems
They don’t need my issues
I want to spare them my pain.

They want to help you
Don’t be so selfish
They hurt for you all the same.

I don’t want to hurt them
Or scare them away
I can handle it.

You don’t have to handle it.

You don’t have to do it on your own.

You are never, and will never be alone.

Day 6 part 1

Torn apart

True emotions revealed

There is a lack of joy and compassion.

All alone

No one knows

I’m alone because I’ve said nothing.

Afraid now

Don’t let this be me

I know I can’t handle it.

Giving up

It’s getting harder

I have no idea how to make it.

Day 5

In the darkness we find a light
We place our hopes on that single point.
Stumbling through the underground despair
We see this light, we have a goal.

As we move towards the light
It appears to move away
Just out of reach
Our salvation.

We quicken our steps
The dream of freedom disappears
Following the steps of thousands before us
We chase a glimmer of hope in the darkest of times.

This light feels unattainable as long as you are searching for it.
There is no secret answer to what frees you from yourself.
Learn who you are, be who you want to be.
That is the only light you need.

Day 4

I will never be in a place where I won’t need you

A steady rock protecting me from the crashing waves and stinging winds

A beacon in the darkest of times

My only hope is that I accomplish the same for you.

I wish to protect you from the evils of this world

I want to be the wall you go to when you need defended

The person who can support you when you are ready to fend for yourself.

I want to be all that and more.

But mostly, I just want you to know, I will always be here for you.

Day 3

I’m sick and tired of all the shit I have to deal with
Done with solving problems that you yourself have caused.
I’d rather be alone than working out your issues
It always seems to be my fault, when I’ve done nothing wrong.

I want to tell you I still love you
that this isn’t at all your fault
I feel guilt when I should have none
Yet you act like nothings wrong.

Was he worth our damnation?
Was it right for you in the end?
I guess the issue I’m still having,
Is how you’d like to be my friend.

Day 2

This I feel will be a much better representation of my writing.

Faceless entities surround us.
Showing us the way things are 'meant' to be
Attacking our true identity

This is a mistake
Forcing down individuality
Destroying uniqueness at the core.

Have you ever considered watching something grow?
Give something new a chance to be its own.
We don't need to be put down before we have a chance to get up.

Allow the light of an individual come to fruition.
Don't force us to behave the way you think we should.
Nurture our creativity don't scoff at it

Make it known that we can succeed.
Don't extinguish the hope that is within us.
It's time to give our thoughts a chance.

Allow us to stand on our own.

Poetry challenge day one

Going to start a poetry/writing challenge, using today as my lazy day since I should be in bed already

Day One: Haiku

Poetry Challenge

Three Hundred and Sixty-five

Day One. Let’s do this.

Imprisoned

Its a battle I desire

The conflict of an age

I'm an unrelenting force

My spirit can't be caged

I will throw myself upon the battlements of the world

Conquering all who thought to bring me down

Shattering walls they set in my way

I cannot be contained, you will feel my rage.

I've destroyed the vestiges of my humanity

I am a product of creation

There is no morality left

I have no course, no destination

You hope to garner insight

Examining my thoughts

I took apart my sanity

Come join me in my madness.

I relish in this freedom

all thoughts are my own

The world around cannot get in

I'm at peace when I'm alone.

Lost in a moment

Your consoling presence was all I had
Now I've nothing to hold me up
I'm breaking down when I should be proud.

You watched me fail far too often

Now I'm out to succeed

I only wish that you could be here

You most of all deserved to see this

A mission in my eyes

Passion about something in my life

Yet we parted ways much too soon

and I've lost a lifetime in a moment

I just wish you could see me now

I'm finally doing something right

accomplishing my goals

I just hope you're proud of me

but I feel I'll never know.

Terrible Things

Breaking into the reasons that cause my despair

I've come to the conclusion that I'm beyond repair.

I can't attend my funeral if I haven't died

but I can break down and wish for a while.

I shatter these illusions trying to make it  all clear

I force myself to ponder on what is real.

The truth behind the veil is nothing to fear

but I can't control these emotions I feel.

I chose to hide behind this wall of false realities

where none can see my pain

I would rather suffer silently

trying to help would be vain.

you can't waltz in here

and change my life

but you did just that

when I was doing just fine.

I opened my heart to you

and let out my soul

I made a new start

I had a new goal

You didn't force my hand

I did it on my own

You were my inspiration

And now I feel alone.

these fears I didn't see

Have come up to the surface

you've unleashed demons

better left alone.