Imprisoned

Its a battle I desire

The conflict of an age

I'm an unrelenting force

My spirit can't be caged

I will throw myself upon the battlements of the world

Conquering all who thought to bring me down

Shattering walls they set in my way

I cannot be contained, you will feel my rage.

I've destroyed the vestiges of my humanity

I am a product of creation

There is no morality left

I have no course, no destination

You hope to garner insight

Examining my thoughts

I took apart my sanity

Come join me in my madness.

I relish in this freedom

all thoughts are my own

The world around cannot get in

I'm at peace when I'm alone.

Lost in a moment

Your consoling presence was all I had
Now I've nothing to hold me up
I'm breaking down when I should be proud.

You watched me fail far too often

Now I'm out to succeed

I only wish that you could be here

You most of all deserved to see this

A mission in my eyes

Passion about something in my life

Yet we parted ways much too soon

and I've lost a lifetime in a moment

I just wish you could see me now

I'm finally doing something right

accomplishing my goals

I just hope you're proud of me

but I feel I'll never know.

Terrible Things

Breaking into the reasons that cause my despair

I've come to the conclusion that I'm beyond repair.

I can't attend my funeral if I haven't died

but I can break down and wish for a while.

I shatter these illusions trying to make it  all clear

I force myself to ponder on what is real.

The truth behind the veil is nothing to fear

but I can't control these emotions I feel.

I chose to hide behind this wall of false realities

where none can see my pain

I would rather suffer silently

trying to help would be vain.

you can't waltz in here

and change my life

but you did just that

when I was doing just fine.

I opened my heart to you

and let out my soul

I made a new start

I had a new goal

You didn't force my hand

I did it on my own

You were my inspiration

And now I feel alone.

these fears I didn't see

Have come up to the surface

you've unleashed demons

better left alone.