So give me a chance
let me explain
these insane thoughts
wracking my brain.

It would be the truth
no need to lie
I'm done caring
there's no disguise.

My concerns are over
I no longer care
my last wish for you
is that you be aware.

These changes you made
so inconsistent
hurtful despicable
I'm filled with resent.

I know its a lie
this show you put on
It's pushed me away
It's too late, I'm gone.

I no longer wish
to be part of your life
this game we played
has ended this time.

Out of respect
I stick around
you were my best friend
you should be proud.

That title is rare
hard to come by
you took it with grace
then ruined my life.

You think its unjust
these feelings I have
You couldn't possibly
begin to understand.

I give everything
to people I love
you topped that list
so far above.

Now you're rock bottom
nowhere to go
you had the big time
but you lost your show.

Day 12

What would you tell me if I were dying?

I wouldn't want to hear your consoling lies

The truth is what I would like to hear.

As bitter as it could ever be.

Your honesty would mean everything to me.

And if by chance it is in my favor, well that I would like as well.

Though with this knowledge gained I might wish to survive.

Even if this outcome has been foretold.

There is a new world for which I shall try.

Day 11

The wind howls through the chasm of life.
The craggy outcrops provide some shelter from the slicing maelstrom

Rain begins to fall,eroding the foundation of your protection

As well as a blinding darkness, feeding on your fear.

Conflict stirs on the edges, some for, some against.

Will you let outside forces determine the outcome

Or is this for you to decide?

Day 10

A whisper from your lips brings a smile
One that I can’t seem to hide
I never thought you’d be my desire
It seems my heart had other plans.

A distance we can’t quite cross
Is all that stands in our way
We may overcome this together
Or this could be the end of something great.

I would love to take a chance
A risk for this would be worthwhile
I guess this is my confession
Don’t let this be determined by miles.

Day 9

Days turn to weeks

Misery has no timeline

The pain you feel on day one can escalate, diminish, or remain the same.

There is no greater thing than overcoming inner pain.

The turmoil you feel can be resolved or it can grow.

The choice is yours, and will remain yours, always.

No one can take away the option of inner peace.

Don't keep yourself from sanity.

Day 8

I wish for better days
The ones that passed
and the ones to come
Any day but today.

Today brings up memories
Why offer the option to go back to a day like today?

To fix the cause of the problem of course. 

But would I be the same?

The true question is not, would I be the same.

The question should be, would I be better?

There is nothing to fix if things would get worse.

Think about the person you became
The friends you have made.

Would they be here if you were different?

Would your life be better without them?

I can honestly say, my life would be worse.

I lost my mother almost 3 years ago. I think about how often I would change that day, the things I did. I lost my best friend and it still hurts.

I will never forget the people who were there for me during that period, and the time after when I was in a very bad spot.

I lost my best friend, but I gained many more.

Many who I would never know if not for the situation life had set before me on that day. Many who have made me into the much better person I am now.

Day 7

Stuck in an endless loop of sadness

Unable to escape for something better

I wish my strength progressed further

I've got joy in my heart

And yet I feel like a failure

I've no method of expression for this.

I wish to inform the world that I'm happy.

But I just sit in silence.

I want to write down what I'm feeling.

Express myself in my favorite way

I just can't find the perfect words

My sadness is easier than bliss.