Terrible Things

Breaking into the reasons that cause my despair

I've come to the conclusion that I'm beyond repair.

I can't attend my funeral if I haven't died

but I can break down and wish for a while.

I shatter these illusions trying to make it  all clear

I force myself to ponder on what is real.

The truth behind the veil is nothing to fear

but I can't control these emotions I feel.

I chose to hide behind this wall of false realities

where none can see my pain

I would rather suffer silently

trying to help would be vain.

you can't waltz in here

and change my life

but you did just that

when I was doing just fine.

I opened my heart to you

and let out my soul

I made a new start

I had a new goal

You didn't force my hand

I did it on my own

You were my inspiration

And now I feel alone.

these fears I didn't see

Have come up to the surface

you've unleashed demons

better left alone.